How do I pray for something that my heart wants? How do I ask for something that seems so unnecessary but could enrich my life?
I don't want the perfect man or the perfect life or the perfect life. I want a life well-lived and well-loved. I just listened to a song sung by Rory and Joey Feek - When I'm Gone- such a beautiful song, yet so incredibly sad. It made me stop and wonder who will miss me when I'm gone? I know my family will but will there ever be someone who loves me the way I wish I could be loved? It makes me wonder do I deserve that love?
Sometimes I just wish - isn't that how it all starts by wishing? I wish that in times when I am sad and my heart aches that there was someone to comfort me and hold me close and tell me things will be better, not that they'll be okay but just that they would be okay and that they would be there for me.
Sometimes I just wish that I had someone in my life just to go places with me, dinner, the movies, weddings, and even work functions. A friend, that's all. I want it all but I'll wish for simple.
Please don't think that my wishes or wants discount the family and friends I do have. They are bright spots in my life and please know that this wish will ever mean more to me than my relationship with God.
Wouldn't it be awesome if someone who loved God loved me and wanted to grow that relationship with me and with God? Oh the wishes...
Every day I wake up and I know I am blessed beyond measure - God is always with me I am NEVER truly alone and I never will be.
Please know that will all my heart I love and treasure the time I have with my daughter, I would never want to miss out on that. I miss out on so much because I work two jobs and I worry that my beautiful, strong, funny daughter is alone way too much. She'll tell you she isn't alone she has her dogs and cats.
I pray every day for my family and for my daughter. I am so very thankful for the friends and family that I have may they all know how much I truly love them.
Just me
